My fears

U know why I am scared?

I am scared that I am falling in love with you. I am scared of that because falling in love is so hard on knees ;-)

But seriously, falling in love brings with it so mane expectations and the consequent hurts. And I am more afraid of getting hurt with you.

I am afraid that of desertion. I am afraid that I will not be able to keep you satisfied, and that u will go to other men for getting what u might not be getting from me.

I am afraid that you will let other men dominate and prevail on you for sexual favours.

I am afraid that I will not measure up to your standards of what you want from your man, and possibly what u have been getting from men.

I am afraid that you might damage my fragile male ego. I am afraid of being vulnerable in front of you.

I am afraid that you might do to me what I did to Priyanka. You might be entering this relationship because of your neediness/loneliness and not because of love for me, and then what happens when the needs stop being so urgent?

I am also afraid that what if we meet and I don’t like the way u look? Even though I tell myself that physical appearance does not matter, but I do find myself getting turned off by certain women because of their physical appearance.

But seriously, the biggest thing that these fears mean is that I am getting attached to you and hence I am afraid of loosing you. And this itself reassures me that I am on the right path. Its like the reassuring bitterness of cough medicine which tells you that soon this medicine will get to work on your body and will make u whole and complete again.