coming home
There's a beautiful don McLean song called crying which has the lines "I thought that I was over you, but its true, oh so trueI love you even more than I did beforebut darling, what can I do?" and I guess its the same with me and my women lover phase. I though I was over it, but the last few days I've been feeling like someone's missing. While cycling home, I feel like talking to someone, feel like calling up someone. But no matter whom I call, I never get any satisfaction. After just two minutes I want to hang up, but of course I can't.
Who is it or what is it that I am missing? I feel some sort of emptyness, but I am not sure if only the presence of a girlfriend would fill it. The more I think about it, the more I feel that a lot of my loves would have to remain solitary loves. The road I love to come home by for instance, is a really inspiring one and one of the best experiences of my day. Especially nowadays in the monsoon. It is surrounded by trees on both sides, and there is vast expanse of farmland on side of it which is completely green at this time of the year. But the road also serves as a toilet for the people of a nearby village and one can frequently encounter people squatting next to the road. I imagine this would be a turnoff for any girl, though for some reason it doesn't bother me. The way I see it, at least they're not throwing plastic and other non-biodegradable items and permanently polluting the place. What they're doing will only add to the greenery eventually.
My other love is travelling light. When I say travelling light, I mean travelling without the encumberances of a car/bike etc. I love to travel like that. Just go where my heart desires without having to worry about parking space, traffic, the exertion of driving etc. I love to travel on the mercy of the world at large. Hitching lifts, running after busses, using the occasional rickshaw. Don't think any girl will find this too appealing either.
Though a lot of my other loves could probably be shared like good movies, good food, music, exercising, cycling, exploring new places etc.
Who is it or what is it that I am missing? I feel some sort of emptyness, but I am not sure if only the presence of a girlfriend would fill it. The more I think about it, the more I feel that a lot of my loves would have to remain solitary loves. The road I love to come home by for instance, is a really inspiring one and one of the best experiences of my day. Especially nowadays in the monsoon. It is surrounded by trees on both sides, and there is vast expanse of farmland on side of it which is completely green at this time of the year. But the road also serves as a toilet for the people of a nearby village and one can frequently encounter people squatting next to the road. I imagine this would be a turnoff for any girl, though for some reason it doesn't bother me. The way I see it, at least they're not throwing plastic and other non-biodegradable items and permanently polluting the place. What they're doing will only add to the greenery eventually.
My other love is travelling light. When I say travelling light, I mean travelling without the encumberances of a car/bike etc. I love to travel like that. Just go where my heart desires without having to worry about parking space, traffic, the exertion of driving etc. I love to travel on the mercy of the world at large. Hitching lifts, running after busses, using the occasional rickshaw. Don't think any girl will find this too appealing either.
Though a lot of my other loves could probably be shared like good movies, good food, music, exercising, cycling, exploring new places etc.
posted by philosopher stoned | 9:40 AM
1 Comments:
absolutely love this post! totally relate to what you mean about just enjoying the greenery and the country-side atmosphere.. hate being in a jungle of concrete. it can get so suffocating sometimes. and of course, ur travel light bit, is exactly what I hope to do someday in my backpacking trip plan!
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