aaaaaaarrrggghhhh!
I don't even know if u read this anymore or not. I just feel so bottled up and so badly want to shout!
Do u really care for me? Am I a sympathy fuck and a lift-me-up for you? I know what I'm talking about cos I also do it. At times a girl finds me v attractive, but I don't find her attractive. Well, u know what I do? I encourage her. Why do I encourage her? I think its cos I am needy and want feel the appreciation and awe she has for me. It makes me feel good. But each time I have a sustained interaction with her, I realise that she is not the one for me, and end of each encounter I feel less needy for her. I find her less desirable at the end of it. But in a little while - maybe a day or maybe more, I want to feel her love and appreciation again. And so I keep encouraging her. Its a horrible thing to do a girl. And I think I'm probably doing it right now to a girl. Damn! I am a horrible person! And I can't stop myself from doing it. Just for that short span feeling good that it gives me. Its like a food craving. You just go and stuff yourself full of something cos it is a good lift-me-up and u crave the taste of it on your tongue. At the end u feel stuffed and repentent, but u will still go back to it and again feel the same way. Its a terrible addiction. And one that seems so difficult to cure.
U know there is a student in my class and I find her incredibly hot. She's dark and fine and has luscious long hair. She doesn't have an ounce of fat on her, and I find that so hot! She's got attitude too. She just attracts attention towards her without being loud or brashful.
Do u really care for me? Am I a sympathy fuck and a lift-me-up for you? I know what I'm talking about cos I also do it. At times a girl finds me v attractive, but I don't find her attractive. Well, u know what I do? I encourage her. Why do I encourage her? I think its cos I am needy and want feel the appreciation and awe she has for me. It makes me feel good. But each time I have a sustained interaction with her, I realise that she is not the one for me, and end of each encounter I feel less needy for her. I find her less desirable at the end of it. But in a little while - maybe a day or maybe more, I want to feel her love and appreciation again. And so I keep encouraging her. Its a horrible thing to do a girl. And I think I'm probably doing it right now to a girl. Damn! I am a horrible person! And I can't stop myself from doing it. Just for that short span feeling good that it gives me. Its like a food craving. You just go and stuff yourself full of something cos it is a good lift-me-up and u crave the taste of it on your tongue. At the end u feel stuffed and repentent, but u will still go back to it and again feel the same way. Its a terrible addiction. And one that seems so difficult to cure.
U know there is a student in my class and I find her incredibly hot. She's dark and fine and has luscious long hair. She doesn't have an ounce of fat on her, and I find that so hot! She's got attitude too. She just attracts attention towards her without being loud or brashful.
posted by philosopher stoned | 2:18 AM
1 Comments:
I think your guilt would be a lot less if i tell u the truth about MOST girls...they do exactly what u're doing right now. Most of the girls encourage a guy to make themselves feel important, appreciated and give a boost to their confidence and self-esteem. SAD BUT TRUE. This is as blatant as it could get.
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