Thoughts on Celestine Prophecy
You ought to read this blog only if you have read The Celestine Prophecy. I’ve jotted my experiences and thoughts while reading that book here.
Third Insight
I had started reading the Celestine Prophecy more than 3 years ago. A friend I was very inspired by recommended it to me and also recommended reiki to me. I did reiki first and read the book later. Because I had done resiki, I could instantly relate with the third insight of energy fields. I felt the energy fields when I did reiki, and I also experienced the mental morning alarm. The master made us put reiki morning alarm, and sure enough next day I was woken up by a phone call from a friend at 7 in the morning. Mere coincidence? I did not think so. I was truly amazed by the prospect of energy fields around our body and how we can manipulate them and heal them. I never followed up on them actively, for some reason I left reiki at that point of having received the understanding of energy fields.
I had taken this book with me to McLeod gunj, which is a hill station near Dharamshala, and is probably my favourite place in the hills so far. I read the book till the fourth or fifth insight, which is as far as I got there. And then I never got back to reading it again once I came back to life in the plains. I guess I did not want to waste the insights by reading them in a position when I would not be able to really grasp them. Recently I met S online who was deeply influenced by the book and inspired me also to read it, and I started reading the book again. I've re-read up to the third insight so far. I think this gap in reading it was meant to happen. I was probably not ready for the other insights, and I am probably ready for them now, and S came along at just the right time to guide me towards the other insights.
I had taken this book with me to McLeod gunj, which is a hill station near Dharamshala, and is probably my favourite place in the hills so far. I read the book till the fourth or fifth insight, which is as far as I got there. And then I never got back to reading it again once I came back to life in the plains. I guess I did not want to waste the insights by reading them in a position when I would not be able to really grasp them. Recently I met S online who was deeply influenced by the book and inspired me also to read it, and I started reading the book again. I've re-read up to the third insight so far. I think this gap in reading it was meant to happen. I was probably not ready for the other insights, and I am probably ready for them now, and S came along at just the right time to guide me towards the other insights.
Fourth Insight
Well, I've just finished the fourth insight. I was reminded of the last time I met the friend who recommended this book to me. That day I felt so good after meeting her, and now I realise that it was probably because she was voluntarily giving me her energy. She wanted answers, she considered me to be very wise and wanted to listen to my theories on life etc.
I have always believed in vibes that exist in a place. I always felt that my family house in delhi had a lot of negative energy about it. It was a place that always made me feel passive and unsure. On the other hand, the very first time I came to Greater Noida (a suburb of Delhi) I fell in love with the place. I just felt so good here, so positive. I think there is a very strong positive energy field here that makes me feel so good. My life has changed so drastically for the better in the one year that I have lived here, I think it is only because of the energy I get from this place.
There are times when I meet some people and I just don't like spending time with them, I just get turned off from them. I think it because they are trying to feed off my energy, and I sense it at a subconscious level.
Whenever I am sexually or romantically attracted to a woman, that woman always reciprocates, though unfortunately it is most times a reciprocal in the form of friendship, but there is a reciprocal. I think they sense the energy I send out to them, and want more of it.
I have always believed in vibes that exist in a place. I always felt that my family house in delhi had a lot of negative energy about it. It was a place that always made me feel passive and unsure. On the other hand, the very first time I came to Greater Noida (a suburb of Delhi) I fell in love with the place. I just felt so good here, so positive. I think there is a very strong positive energy field here that makes me feel so good. My life has changed so drastically for the better in the one year that I have lived here, I think it is only because of the energy I get from this place.
There are times when I meet some people and I just don't like spending time with them, I just get turned off from them. I think it because they are trying to feed off my energy, and I sense it at a subconscious level.
Whenever I am sexually or romantically attracted to a woman, that woman always reciprocates, though unfortunately it is most times a reciprocal in the form of friendship, but there is a reciprocal. I think they sense the energy I send out to them, and want more of it.
Why was I born to my parents?
My father is the most intelligent and logical person I know. He boasts of a time when he proved that a question given in his maths paper was wrong, and the professor was so impressed with him that he gave him extra marks for it. He got 105 out of 100 in that paper. He then went on to engineering from BITS Pilani, one of the top institutes of the country.
He is also one of the most hedonistic person I know. He will not get up from his sofa for even a glass of water, but will ask his wife or servant to get it. Not to say that he is lazy, because he is quite an energetic person, but he’s just that way at home. My dad is also a bit insecure, and hence has some aggression coming from that.
My mother on the other hand is not that sharp in the logic/mathematics department, but she has excellent verbal skills. She has very good people skills, and she is the one who is called on to resolve any disputes or fights that arise in the house. My grandmother specialises in having a major fight with her maids at least once every six months, but my mom manages to resolve the issue most of the times. She is also a very body oriented person. She shows her emotions very physically, looks after her body, and in fact I would say she specialises in what is nowadays called wellness. My mom is also quite sacrificing, and more often than not will put others before herself.
But what was their purpose of life? Possibly for my dad it is to make a lot of money so that he can indulge every fancy of his post retirement. Money is important for my dad. For my mom, possibly balance is what she wants the most. Balance in work-family life, balance in diet, balance in friendship…
But I am still not fully clear why exactly was I born to my parents.
He is also one of the most hedonistic person I know. He will not get up from his sofa for even a glass of water, but will ask his wife or servant to get it. Not to say that he is lazy, because he is quite an energetic person, but he’s just that way at home. My dad is also a bit insecure, and hence has some aggression coming from that.
My mother on the other hand is not that sharp in the logic/mathematics department, but she has excellent verbal skills. She has very good people skills, and she is the one who is called on to resolve any disputes or fights that arise in the house. My grandmother specialises in having a major fight with her maids at least once every six months, but my mom manages to resolve the issue most of the times. She is also a very body oriented person. She shows her emotions very physically, looks after her body, and in fact I would say she specialises in what is nowadays called wellness. My mom is also quite sacrificing, and more often than not will put others before herself.
But what was their purpose of life? Possibly for my dad it is to make a lot of money so that he can indulge every fancy of his post retirement. Money is important for my dad. For my mom, possibly balance is what she wants the most. Balance in work-family life, balance in diet, balance in friendship…
But I am still not fully clear why exactly was I born to my parents.
The Eighth Insight
I have now understood why I did not read Celestine prophecy further the first time around. Now is when I am truly ready to understand and appreciate the eight insight. I am an incomplete circle, a C. And I am desperately looking to complete the circle by finding another C, a female C to compliment my male C. And that is why I am so fucking desperate right now. That is why I am searching for intimacy like crazy – I want the energy source of a female C, and it doesn’t really matter too much who it is. I think this problem has been compounded by the lack of any female energy source whatsoever like my mom, grandmom etc. This is probably also the reason why I start connecting (speaking in terms of energy) with every eligible single woman in my classes. I am desperately seeking the female energy.
This also explains the a lot about my past relationships also. With P (ex-girlfriend), we were both incomplete C’s desperately looking to complete ourselves, and we found the other half in each other. This is why we loved being naked in each other’s arms. That was how our energies really connected best with each other, that was when we really completed the circle. And that I what I am seeking now – someone to complete the circle.
With my one-sided love relationships, there I was again providing energy to the woman, and that is why the woman always got close to me and we became emotionally intimate. That was how we were feeding each other energy. But perhaps the women knew intuitively that I was an incomplete circle and would eventually destroy the love between us, and so they never got in a relationship with me.
Now the big question is how do I make myself a complete circle, how do I tap into my own female energy source? How do I become self sufficient?
This also explains the a lot about my past relationships also. With P (ex-girlfriend), we were both incomplete C’s desperately looking to complete ourselves, and we found the other half in each other. This is why we loved being naked in each other’s arms. That was how our energies really connected best with each other, that was when we really completed the circle. And that I what I am seeking now – someone to complete the circle.
With my one-sided love relationships, there I was again providing energy to the woman, and that is why the woman always got close to me and we became emotionally intimate. That was how we were feeding each other energy. But perhaps the women knew intuitively that I was an incomplete circle and would eventually destroy the love between us, and so they never got in a relationship with me.
Now the big question is how do I make myself a complete circle, how do I tap into my own female energy source? How do I become self sufficient?
posted by philosopher stoned | 1:05 AM
1 Comments:
I first was recommended the book by a friend, wasn't really that interested and a bit sceptical, later on it was recommended by a girl from my class. This time I read it and every single part made sense and transformed my whole way of thinking. The timing was perfect.
About 5 months later I met a woman three times in one day at random places, after having eye contact with her twice yet saying nothing, the third time I said hi...the first thing she said was; have you read 'the celestine prophecy'?
This was just a random stranger who has now become a close friend and a source of healing energy for me.
There are no coincedences!
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